I drive him crazy..



Automatically he gets soo irritated by me.
" tak kenal maka tak cinta right??"
I am talking about his fetish on cleanliness.
His eyes rolls as I bite on my wholemeal sandwich

with the crunchy peanut butter

on his "precious sofa"!!!

"Do you think there's a maid around here?"
"Maybe you think there is housekeeping service here"..
His sarcasm kinda of cute to me,
I normally turned deaf ear when he says that.
He is totally harmless, Bluek!!!

You will never really know someone

unless you live with that someone.
I am not complaining, I have gotten used to it by now.
Its been few years.

Automatically or manually I will drive him crazy all the time!!!
And for one fact

I am sick of operating in manual transmission!!
Changing gears is so tedious when comes to bad traffic,
but it can be super shiok at times

cos its under your control.
What happens when it gets out of control,

it can be pretty dangerous.

I am not in for some kind of thrills anymore.
I am so tired.
Can I settle of automatic transmission??
I guess it time for a change!
Changes suppose to be good right.
Yes that is a positive intuition!

Fancy Dress..

It is suppose to be fancy"ful" instead of fancy''fool''.

What would a heavy hippo like me be at a place like that right?!

I will end up looking like a fool.

Furthermore these few days I was not feeling too good,

the doctor advised me to avoid all the negative vibes and stay positive,

I am not on medication though.

I leave it to my immune system.

The theme sounded pretty fun.

The boys even went all the way to rent costumes for this function.

A.L was sweet enough to give me a call from the costume shop asking me to go just in case I change my mind.

He found a "PERFECT COSTUME" for me!!!

I told Azrieda about it & we started giggling over the phone.

Have fun darling,

while I go and do some "melting" of the plastic.

What do I missed out?!!!

I heard my dearest A.L was caught off-guard,

he made a speech..
Hmm..

An angel sent to take care of my bad boy??
haha..

Mrs Azmi, lovely isn't she..

"Do not judge me by my past, let the past be bygones"

that's what the bad boy of Woodlands said in his speech..

So did I miss out alot?

Mother's Love

Most women claims that motherhood is such a wonderful experience. Frankly its not an easy task. It all depends on what kind of parent you want to be.

From my own personal experience, someone which I look up to is my mother. Not long ago she chooses for an early retirement just to take care of my unwell younger sister. Yes my younger sister is a special girl. She is intellectually challenged. Down syndrome or some senseless people calls a retard(it pains me typing his word).

Close friends would have probably heard or seen her before. She is 26 years of age, 1.55m tall & she is obese. However she is such a darling. When I was growing up with her, she used to be super temperamental and mum always takes her side!!! She reminded me time and time again, she is a special person, that is why we cannot blame her for her actions. When I was a kid, people will stare at her strangely. I even got into a fight when one of my neighbour called her a "retard"!! Maybe their vocabulary is so limited!!!

Now she is in much better condition, you can never trade in anything for a mother's love. She is willing to sacrifice part of her life for her own daughter. Ever since my mum quit her job, her condition improves and she is back adding sunshine in the house.

Due to my family background and history, I went through a couple of test. It seems fine, but I believe everything is in god's hand. When you are going through motherhood, nothing else matters. Its your own flesh & blood.

My mum born a child, which has no resemblance of her. Did she throws it in the rubbish chute?? She did not. She accepted the gift of god!! She went through a hard time, but it did not matter to her.

Until now she sings lullaby and feeds her 26 years old daughter. In her eyes she is the most beautiful daughter god has granted her.

Let's have a silent moment to our self. Think back of what we have done or said that hurt others. If you think mocking & making fun of others is what you do best, think again, god gives you beauty and brains, so use it wisely. My sister is not that lucky. Oh wait I am not comparing you to her..infact her soul is far much more beautiful than a normal human. Manusia yang cukup sifatnya.

One more thing, in life do not speak too soon kalau orang melayu cakap mulut jangan lantang sangat. Whatever you mock may happen to you one fine day, scary isn't it (amit amit jambangbayi). Let's pray for our own happiness instead of finding flaws or loopholes in someone else's.

Rejected

I received a sweet mesg from a girlfriend (macam pen pal), asking me how am I. Its been a long time since I have chatted with her and nothing changes that much.

Frankly I have been super busy lately. Her concerned gestures touched me. True, it does. I realised one thing, I am not good juggling with my time. Along the way I have neglected a lot of friends, to start with I do not have much friends to begin with, I am very selective when comes to friendship. Once bitten, twice shy.

I have not been a good friend, ever since back those days. I do not commit to alot of things especially "time". I come and go, friends would have realised by now, I am very reserved when it comes to personal affair. I do not reveal much..

I missed out birthdays, outings & gatherings & I am always forgiven.

I finally realised, how sweet my friends are. Especially those whom I have known for more than 15 years, for those new friends, Sorry if I have neglected you guys *smiles* , please have faith in my sincerity, I do not simply add people on my friendster list just to accumulate numbers. I am totally sincere. If you are on my friendster list.. I welcome you with open arms. No wonder my list consist of less than 100 friends..kwa kwa..kwa!!!

Blame it on some friends bluek!!!! Haha..
My testimonials are not convincing enuff to prove that I am a "nice" person...haha
Just an example of testi from two babes!!!



"There was a time when I could not stand the sight of her. She practically threw me a monstrous look when I bumped into her in the stadium's toilet. But I bet she loathed me too!But somehow, we got acquainted and we just got bitchy... Together! Hahaha.. It's been what.. erm.. 4 years now? "



"mizzzz da bimbo dayz!! da day when i became bitchy was when i met u!! da expression of ur face!! My GOD!! hahaha...anyways...FANTAStic woman...dats who u r! love u who u r!! "

Seriously do I look that "bitchy".. or is it just the face, what you want me to do, go under knives.. and opt for the sweet siti nurhaliza look. I cannot change my features. Maybe I can improve on my persona (fake??). I am still trying oke, but the main problem is; first impression last so that is when people will start judging!!

Human nature, you do not know a person personally but you are out with a verdict!

Maybe I should start adding strangers to accumulate my list. Try to be friendlier, but what if I get rejected?? Like one of my babelicious girlfriend, she is super hot that everyone wants to be on her list including women. Too bad if you get rejected!! She lagi super selective!! She simply do not add strangers!! She has a criteria to supervine!!

For me, I can't be that selective, not many adds lah~ kwa kwa kwa..!

First impression last, last impression lingers..

PS: I love these two babes.. and I am missing you both, lup u deep deep!!!

Picture Of You..



Does your sweetheart keeps a picture perfect of you in his wallet?

My A.L does, not this one above (mcm hippo taken recently lol). He keeps another orbit photo of me riding his vespa when it was blue in colour, wearing an ugly white mushroom helmet, so orbit cha cha!!!

Talking about helmet: SHOUTOUT TO CT BUTTERFLY, do you remember when we were all in the car, I was driving Faz wrx, you guys made me wear the stupid army helmet!! eh gambar tu mana?? Legend kan!! LoL!! Semua keta tengok!!! "untuk mempertahankan diri!!"

Ok ignore that, coming back to my topic, reason I was asked this question by my gf was because.. according to my gf..

Gone are the days where his wallet slots & picture gallery will be filled with you.. soon you have to share it.

Gone are the days you are top priority, you will be second!!

When he goes for trips, gone are the days when you are the first he wanna hug!!!

Everything will be "code sharing" lol!!!

Hey babe are you trying to scare me?? So I told her, on a selfish note, I prefer boys!! So I will be the only woman in the house!! Anyway I am more popular with men rather than women!!! Bluek(pukes)!!

Its always easier to work with men rather than women.

True?

Women sikit2 nak tekan minyak~ aper jer

(eww sounds mina enuff, such dull apprehension directed --->)

Second thought, girls are more filial. However I still prefer bad boys...

Strangers At your Doorstep..

It is seriously "No fun" when your place becomes like a "show room". I was expecting people at different timings in a day! Answering their queries on the design itself. Some were asking questions like does it comes with the "BOSE" hi-fi system as well. I feel like telling them, oh it comes with a Bang & Olfusen screen plus my black cat. How's dat!!!

Well patience is a virtue, I still ask "Would you like to have a drink?" some were so amazed by my toilet! Yah you can even sleep in my toilet! I am not kidding!! Some even ask me for my fridge plus my fisher & paykel, washer & dryer (gilerker). I bet they even want my mattress and my super ex duvet!!!

Problem with Singaporeans, they willing to pay a certain price, but they want everything including my black cat(maybe)!!! Typical of them. Well if the price is right, why not. If you appreciate modern design.

Sad to say, some of my own people do not like the concept. They find it weird, judging from the faces & comments. They were expecting Balinese style(whatever they call it), more woody concept I guess. Open concept & modern design a definite no for "some".

So I have pretty "good" bids for now, I am still sad to let go. Maybe I won't after all, still thinking. Yah it has great sentimental value for me. I have learned my lesson, maybe my next house design will just moderately affordable. Not too high end. A home should be filled with lots of love right??!!. I was only 25 years old, when I become the sole "owner" of this house. Time to let go.. sad for me, but we must all move on. I am sure all of us have dreams and bigger expectations in life. Frankly I do not just feel contented fixing coffee for others! But on second thoughts its "gourmet" coffee which I was previously serving. Different aroma & acidity, not just some 3 in 1 coffee. Hey, the instant 3 in 1 coffee can be super tasty you know!! Keyword is "are you easily contented"?!

So "gourmet" or "3 in 1".. so which one would you prefer?

These days, I was busy "struggling" for some changes in life, life its not easy when you are jobless. Some just speak to impress and yet they are still struggling for something! At that young age, I was probably starting the engine of my first car, you probably just smell the smoke!! Oh well am I bragging here who cares~ thanks to "COFFEE, TEA for you ma'am?"

Oh well I still get to keep some "remains" of it. One of my close friend (ex crew) was talking to me about her ground job. We were talking about the pay and stuff! Lucky her, she is paid quite well because it just happen that her boss loves flying the friendly skies. I admire her humbleness, she even mentioned her salary as a personal assistant, with a sigh though. She is paid well, excuse me.. but she still miss her paycheck back then. According to her for a ground job that amount is considered big ok!! I have to agree with her. I shall prepare myself of certain things if I want to go "ground".

Maybe I have to start from the scratch?? A job will always be a job, that is why you call it earning a living, how little you earn or how great you earn is part and parcel of living! Why go around insulting someone's profession. Are you that established yourself?! I am not there yet, so I dare not!!

I so envy the younger generation, at the age of 18, my sister was given a driving package on her birthday. BLUEK!!! Lucky her. I know of someone who gets her first own "platinum card", designer watch (boleh pajak ok!! LOL), first "private" property overseas, first car before hitting 25 years of age!!! All through her hardwork!! Shall not mention names ok!!

I hope this will make us realise one thing, do not go around mocking at others when you have nothing against your beautiful name. Its kinda of juvenile calling people names. Start realising, and wake up!! Rather than thinking, the whole world revolves around you. True?

It's been a while since I am jobless. It is not that devastating though. I am waiting for a big prezzie from my dearest A.L! Just a "humble" item. A stalk of rose?? Nope!! Who even cares for bouquet of red roses right?? But my prezzie gonna be red in colour!! You know when you grow older, you crave for bigger things in life..

Older women tend to be paranoid sometimes hehhe, not just over her weight and fine lines. They have higher expectations, one reason they are pretty established, and oh becos of their background. I heard these days younger boys are going after older women. Is it true???

Advise to younger boys, older women are cranky & paranoid. Be prepared.. I remembered when I was back in school, my girlfriend was so lucky back then, her boyfriend gives her pocket money of $50.00 per week. And we like go wahhhhh~

Times have changed right. That was back then.

See the world is changing everyday, move your butt & start craving for bigger changes in life, that is one key to success. Don't just stay at 50 bucks, push it higher.. Push your expectation higher!!

Ok gotta go, another stranger at my doorstep!

A Slap On your face..

The sound of his snore does not seems like a lullaby to me anymore. He rarely snores but I guess he was super tired! Trying hard to sleep, I closed my eyes slowly drifting to my wonderland. I imagined it to be some sweet lullaby.

Suddenly, I heard an acute sound of him grinding his teeth, arghhh!!!! Like a bad dream, I turned around and slapped his face gently!! He then opened his eyes, closed it back. There was suddenly total silence!! No more special sound effects. Was I glad then??

Moral of the story, a slap on the face, leaves the night peaceful & serene! So start slapping!! kwa kwa kwa ..how lame can I be!!

Kids don't try this at home, reactions to different individual varies greatly!!

PS: Azrieda, see I told you right.. *winks*

Limited Edition



Oh dear I still look fat here. Why not after putting on a hefty 20kg!! I proudly announce myself as "hippo" (my new household name) I become a mascot at home, picture proudly drawn by A.L!! Okay, I shall not publish it here, it is embarrassing lah..

From S to M to L to XL to XXL.. Do I make it sound scary to ladies out there? Or maybe I made it sound too ugly.. Okay do not believe everything a blogger says okay. When I was a kid, my mum used to tell me this "Do not talk to strangers & do not be taken in by them." Heh what is the connection by the way! Out of context.. let us move to the next paragraph.

Someone suggested on having a wish list, so friends can anticipate what I want. Bestnyer~ strangers feel free to contribute as well. Actually I do talk to strangers, & I do not bite!! You guys can always email me. Not shy right me! But wait, where's my wish list? Let me see what do I need?

There is a difference in context, in what I really "need" & what I really "want"... Frankly, there is a whole list of what I really "want".. Anyone care to be Santa Claus, I know Christmas is over! Well just another stupid entry of mine, meaningless!!

Why bother translate?!

Controversial returns home 2007!!

Oh dear, what is the date today. Most importantly what year it is. Oh welcome 2007!!! A bit too late?? I guess not. 365 days in a year. 365-8 = 357.. Meaning, I still have 357 days right??!! The reasons that lead to my absence was the slow internet connection I was experiencing. Lousy connection!! Another reason, photobucket was super slow as well. I wanted to upload certain pictures (what's new!!) here, but I guess it will be too backdated by then.

By the way, I have been checking my statcounter, most of my readers & friends are still coming back for updates. Thank you all (macam mana nyer star eh kwa kwa kwa) but its true lah~ some actually read my archives from my previous months, maybe to keep their memories refreshed or probably just getting to know me. Welcome to my world!

Okay, before I get everyone in a sleepy mode reading my words. I better wish a "HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR". As usual, I never make any resolution each year, for fear that I may totally forget them halfway through the 365 days journey. I am not aimless, but I guess action speaks louder than words. 2007, will commence a great new year for both of us, cos we are waiting for the greatest gift of all.



And the latest update, oh! Or am I the backdated one?! Yes, he is back home, a whole year of stadium visits with Mrs. Azmi (Azrieda) throughout the season? *Smiles* Welcome 2007~ to all have a great year ahead. Just in case if I fail to update again, feel free to browse 2006 or maybe click on my links..

IT'S NOT JUST A LINK, IT'S A PRETTY FACE YOU ARE CLICKING ON! Right ladies..??